Stellar!

stel⋅lar

[stel-er]
–adjective
1. of or pertaining to the stars; consisting of stars.
2. like a star, as in brilliance, shape, etc.

I love this word! It describes exactly how I feel in my home! Yesterday was mine & Emmi's birthday! I feel so special to share my special day with my favorite girl! She is a star! She is a light in such a dark world. She is brilliant in the fact that she has all three males in our house eating out of the palm of her hand. She can shape up any and everyone's day! As she does mine, each morning.


So, I choose the word Stellar to describe my feelings! I feel so blessed to have a husband who gives me those butterflies sitll & know that he adores me. To have a son that is the most loving, compassionate, and kind hearted person I know. To have another son, who is struggles with so much in life, but can find joy in things that others simply take for granted. And for my daughter, who will be my best friend for life. Like I am with my mom! And most importantly, to my Savior, Jesus Christ, who gave me all these gifts, just because He loves me. But also the Ultimate Gift....

'For Christ also suffered once for sins, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body but made alive in the Spirit.' 1 Peter 3:18


So, here's to you! If you're reading this, know that I pray for you to feel Stellar in your home, with your family, no matter what circumstances they may be.

'Be Joyful Always, Pray without Ceasing, and be thankful for all circumstances in your life, for they are God's will for you' 1Thess. 5:16-18

Peace Out Hommies

Ps- I will be taking advantage of the Snow Day and upload pics from the Sweet Soiree!!! I promise!!

Sunshine & Lollipops!!!

In honor of my baby girl's 2nd birthday coming up next week. I need to reminiscene over her last two years.  This is my last 2nd Birthday party to ever throw.  I remember having a hard time with this last year. The thought of throwing my last 1st birthday party EVER!!! Will I do this every year??? The answer to that is very easy and very predictable of me........most definietly YES!  I will always be sadden over every 'LAST' moment of my last baby.  What will I do with myself when she goes into Kindergarten??? And, I refuse to think about the big 'C' word

I think BPCC is a fine school!!

So sit back and relish in my emotional preview of my Sassy's last two years of her Dramatically Sweet life!!!

     

my biggest one yet! 8lbs 10 oz

Emmi meet Bubba!

3 months old

In her ride, thanks Aunt Sonya & Uncle David

At school, that bow is as big as her attitude!

My FAV Pic of my trio!! Ahhhh...be still my heart!

Sweet Em at school

my girl and my boys! minus Brock

Emmi at her party last year!!

Alright my friends. Thats all for tonight! I'm sure I'll be posting more.. and after this weekend. I'll have plenty to post of Emmi's Sweet Soiree!!  Stay tuned.  Til then.....

Peace Out Hommies!

Tracey V

ENOUGH.....

of the Doom and Gloom.....

How can I let things in life upset me, when I have these to make my day sunny???

Home Depot, here we come!  Notice the pose!

My Big Boy on 100 Day of school.  He won for his class!

PEACE OUT HOMMIES!  

                                            

Struggles

Here lately, it just seems that struggle is all I deal with. Struggling with internal things. Things that are not nearly as important as I make them. But ever so faithfully I do make them big.  My heart hurts all the time now and I cant seem to make it right. And to anyone reading this and starting to worry, please know that I am FINE.  But I am dealing with things internally.
    Being the daughter of a mother and father who always taught me to stand up for what is right, even if its not always popular was so hard and awful when I was in high school.  To a high schooler, that meant, dont drink at a party because you know its not right, even if its what everyone else is doing.  Dont treat people differently, even if everyone else does.  Don't wear shorts with your hiney hanging out, even if other girls do.  As an adult, its still just as important but not any easier.  But it was engrained into my head and it just comes second nature to me.  I am thankful for Momma and Daddy to teach me to stand on my own two feet and believe in myself as a strong, God-fearing Woman.
   The bible says that God promises us that heaven will be, well..heaven. But here on earth, we will go through struggles and trials.  Jesus also promises us "Blessed is the man who perserveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.'  James 1:12
  I know that this hardship that my heart is going through is a trial and when I have learned the lesson that He is trying to teach me, I will receive victory! I have already received His most precious gift, the gift of salvation. I cannot imagine what I have done to receive four more gifts. ( CV & my trio)
  Tonight when I got home from just a dark day, my babies were the light! I had a dance party with Emmi in the kitchen and sat on the kitchen floor and ate cookie dough with Witten.  At one point, each child came up to me out of no where and thanked for me for various things.  Emmi thanked me for her candy.  (Of course)  Witten right before bed, came up to me, gave me a pumpkin kiss (that's 'our thing' that I will hang over his wife's head someday) and thanked me for his Power Ranger Book that I bought him this weekend. Brock came up behind me as I was ironing letters on his 100 day shirt for tomorrow and thanked me for doing it! ahhhhhhh.....the sigh of a momma who cannot comprehend the amount of love I have for all three.  All three, completely different, completely alike in Him.  And I love them all so much it hurts.
 Jesus loves you and I so much more than that, so much that I can't find words to express it!

How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! 1 John 3:1

Peace Out Hommies!

You have been warned!

Dear Hormones,
   Could you please get a hold of yourself before you actually push me over the edge. I am tired of the constant crying, the ever-so present face breakouts and the mood swings that are giving me whip lash.  My  husband is being patient but how long can he stand me like this and my children deserve a better mom. Please get a grip!!

Peace Out Hommies

Jesus

I am sitting here in my recliner, as I do every night. Going through Blog after Blogs. I love reading women's thoughts. I found one tonight though, that has left me sitting here sobbing uncontrollably. I found one about a little girl named Kate. Kate is 5 and is fighting a fight that no little girl should ever have to face. She is fighting a brain tumor.  I read the Mother's thoughts and she blogged about her experience and just buried my head and bawled! I cannot imagine the burdens on her heart! Kate is the most beautiful blonde-haired, blue-eyed little girl. I think its hitting me hard, because she looks like she would fit into the Van Hoy clan pretty easy!
Tonight, I went to a prayer service for Camon Stowell. Camon is 3 months old and a fighter already. He coded twice today but he fought his way back to his sweet momma and Daddy, Jenny & Jarrod.  My heart hurts for Jenny. I know she is scared. As would I be.  As I am. For Camon.
But, I know that Jesus is the ultimate healer. I am so thankful to be a child of God. I know that HE is holding Camon tonight in that PICU bed.  Just as He has His arms wrapped around my precious trio tucked away in their beds.
I feel so overwhelmed with gratitude for having a God who loves us so much.  I ask God every night to protect our kids from any and everything evil. I pray that Jesus place a hedge of protection around our babies from satan.
I believe satan wants to destroy us. and I believe that he will attack us at any angle, including illness in our children. But the LORD WILL PREVAIL! I have faith in Him and Him alone!

When I came home from the prayer service, Emmi, as always, was waiting at the door and through the window glass she looked at me and squealed 'MOMMY!"  I immediately said a 'shooting star' prayer, as we call them at Mom's Day Out, that one day Jenny will hear Camon squeal like that for her and all of this will be just a season they went through.

In the sweetest name I know, Jesus Christ, I pray for you and your babies!

PS- I do have an awesome update on Witten that I will post soon, but my heart is too heavy. I do not feel that I have the strength to share on my own gifts (my kids) tonight!

                  

To Read Kate's Story, just click here, but grab some tissues first!

Like I needed this......

I am officially obsessed with BLOGS!!!  Not mine...but other women out there who have so much talent its just nauseating! I just spent 2 hours stalking and gaulking over one lady's blog. She has got great talent for decorating her house. She paints all old hand-me-down furniture. She makes her bedding. She creates all her own decorations....its just sick!!! And not to mention, she has three kids, to which she home-schools. WHAT?!?!?!?!?!

I just dont know how she does it???  But...

I am going to give some things a try this year.

I hate New Years Resolutions b/c.....well....let's just be 'skrate up' (straight up) as CV & I would say, my ADD will not allow for me to maintain New Years Resolutions. Not to mention, that I have the will power of a  small goat.

But I do want to set Goals!

GOALS

I like that word so much better.  They dont seem so....permanent.

I am going to sit down tonight and pray! I want God to show me what my goals need to be.

I want them to honor Him.

I want them to be realistic.

I want them to be new for me.

I am a terrible creature of habit. I get out of bed the same way every morning. In the shower, I bathe myself everyday the same way. My routine is the same everyday. I am ready for change!

I kinda feel like I'm campaigning for O'bama right now.

Anyway....

I want to better myself this year!

When I get my goals made....I'll post

til then...

Peace Out Homies!

Just wanted to share my pic for the day!

This is a testament of God at work in my sweet Witten. His sensories are so overloaded, but Witten is fighting them.  He is trying so hard to enjoy what most kids love!

And he did....for a few minutes!

Thank you Jesus for my precious Macabe!